Thursday, November 12, 2009

Sorry :$

I'm sooo sorry you guys..but i've been sooo busy lately, that it's hard to keep track of my flowing thoughts for this story!!! So, if anyone is even reading my blog anymore, which I hope you still do, 'cause i need at least one person to still believe in me, then I'm willing to dedicate some of my time to writing and developing this story!!! And if I get supported, then TONS of inspiration will definitely hit me,, but for tomorrow night I'll be posting a short story, which I'm working on now, to become active again ! :D
I love you all, hugs/kisses.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ramadan Mbarak

Mbarak 3aleikum ilshahar il-kareem w il-fa9'eel! Kol 3am w into ib5eir. Inshallah yen3ad 3alaina w 3aleikum bel9e7a w il3afya kel sena ;D

Friday, August 14, 2009

Guess who's travelling???

YEP!! That's right!! I AM!! Hearts Charm is going off to Cairo! Woohoo!

I'm going to Cairo/Egypt! So, obviously that means I won't be posting for about a month or two cause im not gonna have internet connection all the time!! I know...its a shame :(

I'm gonna miss you all!

P.S. if u've been to Cairo before, leave a comment suggesting places I should visit that are worth my time!! Thanx xD

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Overlooking the Obvious (4)

I know I haven't posted for ages, and I'm sorry for keeping you waiting. So, to make it up to you, I made this post extra long, and I might also be sharing one of my poem's with you guys tomorrow night.

Ok, you guys, just to make everyone clear about what's happening in this post, well, it's mainly said by Mariam. In the story, I made Mariam Lebanese, but she's been living in the 5aleej her entire life, and 3ali's dad is 5aleiji but his mum is Saudi. Ok? Enjoy ;**

Continued from the previous post
Now she had to tell him, there was no turning back now. She tried to block that moment out, to forget it and bury it deep down so no-one would get hurt. But she knew that that wasn't possible, she had to tell him.
There was now a barrier between them, an obstacle they must overcome it they were to keep on loving each other. Mariam began instructing him:
"You deserve to know the truth. But before I tell you, you gotta know that whenever I look in my heart right now and for all the days to come, I find you, and only you. I want to tell you everything. I want you to listen and not interrupt me until I finish what I want to say. Ok?"
They both looked at each other, and 3ali nodded. The sun was beginning to set, glittering red through the empty spaces between the clouds.
"Well, just to make you on the same page, my parents keep feeding into my mind the principle that 'what the mind doesn't know, the heart doesn't grieve over'. I began to regret that day they were planning this setup when I finally realised that I really did fall in love with you, and from that moment on I decided to tell you the truth, but I didn't know when the right time was. And this seems like the most appropriate time to come out with it. The day I came to knowing about my parents' ideas and plans was a typical day, until about evening that day, my dad came in the house looking very tired and angry and depressed, it was the second time I had seen him like that, the first was when my grandmother died, allah yir7amha. He looked like he was about to fall anytime soon, like his mind was going to explode. I was sitting on the couch in the living room watching tv. Then mama asked him, 'eish feek 7abibi? you don't look so good.' He kept walking up the stairs leading to his room, disregarding mama, like she wasn't even there. Mama followed him, and I followed them. He sat on his bed and put his head in his hands, and murmured, 'I lost my job'. We couldn't even hear him the first time, but then suddenly he screamed, 'I LOST MY JOB TODAY'. The colour in my mum's face drained out then and there and she lost her balance and fell to the ground with a thump. Baba sprung up from the bed and made his way to mama and placed her on the bed. He told me to get his cologne and so I did. My mum woke up feeling dizzy and anxious. So we sat there for a couple of minutes, waiting for her to regain her composure, and waiting for her breathing to slow down to normal speed. Suddenly, she shot up of the bed and said: '3endi fikra. You might like it, and you might not. But it's worth giving it a try. Ok. So to make everyone clear, we are short on money, and we are in desperate need now more than ever. So, I was thinking, Mariam' and she turned to face me '3arfa ana taht your guys friends in college are rich and all of their dad's own a company, so I was just thinking, ya3ni, maybe you can hook up with one of them, and I don't know, convince him to fall in love with you 3ashan yo6lob eedek mina, and you will have a share of his money!' I just sat there, I thought I was imagining it all, but then my dad said: 'ah wallah Mariam, that's a great idea, that way you'll ensure your future, and you can help your family.'
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, my mum told me to think about it and tell her if I agreed. I didn't want to disappoint them, so I said that I'd do it. So, I started keeping track of the time you would be alone, and that day I met you was the day my parents had made sure I would say all the right things. Me meeting you wasn't a coincidence, it was a setup. Because you're rich. And I'm so sorry, I truly am very sorry. I was only convinced to do it because my parents told me that life is all about wealth, that happiness equals wealth, that if I had money then I will lead a happy life. But now I know their wrong. What makes an individual happy, is falling in love and sharing their time with the person they love, and that's you 7abebi. I tried resisting love's temptation, I tried real hard, but I knew that the moment I decided to give in to the fact that I had actually fallen in love with you, I knew that this was meant to happen, all of it, that all this was meant to be, it was our fate, you are my prince in shining armor."
3ali just sat there the entire time, with his eyes wide open locked on her and his mouth hung down. He was in complete shock and disbelief. When he realised that she finished her story, he stood up and opened the door to her seat and said with no emotion detectable in his voice:
"yalla goomay, I'm taking you home."
And with that, she obeyed. She got up, took her purse and headed to the open door.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Overlooking the Obvious (3)

Continued from the previous post

He continued trying to make her feel better, except he never knew that he was making it harder for her to make up her mind. "I've never imagined ending up with you. Remember how all those guys would run after you, and chase you in their cars, just trying to get your number? And I'm the one who got lucky, you came to me. Remember how we first met, you told me that I looked like a wasn't a player, and that you want a real relationship, not just for me to be a rebound. You also said that I seemed truthful, and sincere and loyal. And I love everything about you, from your varied laughs to your serious look. What more could I possible ask for?"

"No, please stop, don't say that." And without notice or alarm, her eyes began forming salty teardrops in the corners of her eyes. He immediately stood on his feet and raised his finger to her lips and whispered "hshh", and he didn't allow her to utter another word. He knew that she was scared, because she told him about her past relationships and how they didn't work out, either because she felt they just weren't right, or because the guy ended it indirectly (by either cheating behind her back or just disappearing in thin air without a goodbye).

He got up of the trunk of his car, and held her hand so that she could stand up with him and be held in his embrace. Seconds later, he started to reach for the back pocket of his jeans, while she just stood their in awe and fear, fixing her eyesight on the movement of his hand. He took out a tiny wooden box out of his pocket and held it between his two hands, simultaneously kneeling on one knee and looking up at her, with the full moon in the background making his eyes glimmer from the light. He held up his hands and opened the wooden box that had beautiful carvings on the edge, and inside the box, there was a ring, and her eyes instantaneously opened wider with amazement and disbelief, while he uttered the words she had been fearing to hear the moment she realised that she had accidently fallen in love with him.

"You are all I need, and I want to be with you forever and always. I love you, always have, always will. Will you marry me Mariam Flani?"

She realised that those words he spoke were the same words engraved inside the wooden ring case he held firmly in his hands. It was a beautiful ring, but...

"No, 3ali, stop. Please stop. I can't do this. You deserve to know the truth."

"Baby, what's wrong? Am I going too fast, we can slow down, I can wait, but I don't want to lose you, I can't. You are my everything. If your worried about your heart being broken, trust me I won't break it, I promise. You know I love you, and you love me..." Pause "you do love me, don't you?"

"Yes, yes, ofcourse I do" Pause "But I didn't from the start, it was a setup, you deserve to know the truth."

He stayed quiet, and shook his head up and down, motioning for her to continue.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Overlooking the Obvious (2)

Continued from the previous post

But that's when her subconscious mind began to to take action, affecting her conscious self and her thoughts, and she began to remember the past, things she wished would never have happened, but yet she's grateful, cause the past is what brought her to the present, to live this very moment, and love and be loved.

And that's when the waterworks started working and she couldn't stand the pain and hurt she had inflicted upon herself. And she began to see the worried look in his eyes, she knew that he wasn't the type of guy that knew how to handle these situations.

But he surprised her by saying: "Don't cry baby, nothing in this world is worth one of your precious teardrops to start crawling down your luscious cheeks."

He was surprised at his own sensitivity and emotions and humour around her. But he knew that with her anything was possible, and that he was her man, and in his eyes and heart she deserved everything in this world. He was even more surprised when she began crying more strongly and passionately, and he tried to soothe her by asking:

"Tell me what's wrong, and I'll try to take all the pain away."

She saw his genuine true love by the way he said his words and realised how much she truly loved him, and that's when he began to feel her heart beats quicken and pick up their pace, as if she just ran and was now out of breath. She was about to make the biggest desicision she ever made in a relationship, maybe in her entire life. Her mind started to wonder: Should she tell him or shouldn't she? While her mind was rattling, trying to think of something to say, without pushing him away, he blurted out and said:
"Nothing is going to take you away from me 7abeebti, nothing in this entire world can take you away."

P.S. I know its a short post, bas I won't keep u waiting long, inshallah i'll post tomorrow!

Hope you enjoyed it + more about their worlds' and past coming soon! Not in the next post, bas in the one after it!

Monday, July 27, 2009

Overlooking the Obvious

They could feel each other's passion and love by the movement and beating of their hearts. They both had to admit, feeling each others heartbeat was a powerful feeling. At times just being together and near each other sent a rush of emotions of care, respect, truth, sincerity, honesty, hope, commitment and love. It was at these times that they thought of everything and nothing. It was time that brought them together, and it was only time that could drift them apart.

They say that opposites attract like bees that are drawn to the pollen of flowers. And this analogy described the way they felt about their union.

They could feel each other's intensity of love growing by each day, hour, minute and second they spent together.

It was a beautiful scene sitting in the back trunk of his car together in each others embrace watching the sun set and fade away into the pink clouds just like it was being absorbed and disintegrating forever, just as if it was being torn out of its bright colours. Her, laying her head against his broad, masculine shoulders, claiming her territory. And him just savouring each moment, taking in all he could with each breath, the scent of her curly light brown hair, with each of her golden locks placed neatly on his shoulders. She felt complete. He felt complete. They felt complete. Together.

They could see each other presence, they could smell each others scent, they could taste the moisture in the air, they could feel the warm yet cool vibrant breeze picking up on the winds signal and they could feel each others heartbeat, beating non-stop against the ribcage in their chests.

With each other and by each others side, they could feel the blue past clawing its way to their solitary minds and gradually affecting the present. One word keeps going through each of their minds and souls whenever they're near each other: love.

They could make an equation out of their relationship: Mariam + 3ali = love.

She began thinking that this would be the perfect moment for their first kiss. The perfect mood, the perfect atmosphere, the perfect everything. But that's when her subconscious mind began to take action, affecting her conscious self and her thoughts, and she began to remember the past, things she wished would never have happened, but yet she's grateful, because the past is what brought her to the present, to live this very moment, and love and be loved.